Mel and I went to the funeral home today and I did her makeup and Mel did her hair. The funeral director, Andrew did an amazing job preparing her and we thought she looked great to begin with. But she looked fabulous once we got done with her, and just like herself. Mel was so happy. And I was so happy to have been able to do that. I got to talk to Andrew a lot about his experience as a funeral director and his time at mortuary school. He even let me into the room where they normally make the preparations. The casket was already there and he took us to the garage to see it. He uncovered it and opened it for us to see the inside. It’s really beautiful. We made a good choice. I can’t wait for everyone to see her on Monday. I am really proud of the work we did, now I know how a funeral director must feel.
Tomorrow one of my dreams are coming true. I have always wanted to work in a funeral home and tomorrow at 2:00 I am going to the funeral home and doing mammaw’s makeup. We called the woman who has done mammaw’s hair for forever to see if she wanted to come and do her hair but she was having a really hard time with her death and said it would be too hard for her. She told Mel exactly what to do so now Mel is doing mammaw’s hair. Tonight we picked out mammaw’s outfit and jewelry and I went through mammaw’s makeup and practiced what I was going to do on Mel. Mammaw is going to look beautiful. Oh and we chose 3 different memorial that people donate to and one is The Alliance for Lupus Research!!! I though it was so cool that Mel and Pappaw agreed to include that too, they said Mammaw would really like that we chose my charity too. The others are the Leukemia Society and the Parkview Hospice.
Whenever I come home I spend about an hour the first night rummaging through my walk in closet which is practically a time capsule. Tonight I found a small box full of old school photos of my friends from middle school and high school. Most of them have small notes written on the back. Jenny Dolsen’s from 8th grade said:
"Kate, you’ve been one of my best friends since 7th. I hope it stays that way through CLHS. Give me a call in Hollywood when you sell a painting of yours. (take that back, I’ll buy the painting! Love you, Jenny D"
I have learned NEVER to plan a trip around a boy because once the trip gets here, the boy will no longer be in your life and you will be stuck in California by yourself for the weekend you were supposed to spend with him and then you get a call saying that your grandma might die before monday so you buy a one way ticket and leave ASAP and pray that when you talk to her on the phone tonight it won’t be the last time.
Something made me take The Complete Short Stories of Ernest Hemingway out of my bookcase. I opened the cover and gasped. Inside was a letter written on the back of the cover.
First of all happy Birthday. I am so happy we’ve had the chance to spend two of them together, even though I celebrate you everyday already. Secondly, this here, this book, if I’ve ever bought you anything thats worth being important, is the only book. Skip all that other stuff, this is it. (well maybe don’t skip it but you get it) I love you baby, thats all I really wanted to say and its really the only thing I ever do.
My grandma’s Leukemia has progressed to Acute Leukemia and they have given her 3 months to a year to live. She is my grandma on my birthmother’s side. I’ve only known her for 6 years and that isn’t enough time. Some people say I am lucky to have found them early enough to have met her but it’s bullshit that he has to die. I’m not done getting to know her.
AND a few days ago my foster brother and wife, who is pregnant, went to the doctor and found out that their baby died. She had to still go through the labor and delivery which happened today at 5pm and then she had a D & C afterwards. I think that would be the worst experience ever. I can’t even imagine what they are going through. They also have a little girl named Addison.
Please pray for these situations. It’s going to be a challenging holiday season.
I got home and there was an email from eharmony saying someone requested to fast track message me. His name is Tyson. I accepted. It turns out that it is my best friend from high school’s older brother who I had a MAJOR crush on back in the day. I reconnected with her recently cause she lives in CA too and she told me her brother lives in LA. I got all excited until she said he had a girlfriend. But I guess that changed. I always knew we’d be a good match. I’m glad eharmony agrees.